Vacation!!!

I recently went on a 3 week vacation, well, technically my actual vacation only lasted 5 days, but you know, who's counting? I had to give myself time to mentally prepare for vacation. The last thing anyone would have wanted is for my body to shut down from the utter shock of being in a new town experiencing new things, right? That logic made so much more sense in my head, in writing it looks more like an excuse. I did continue to run right up to the day before we got on the plane, but my diet suffered severely... I had the, 'well we are about to be going on vacation anyway' attitude towards food, which was basically me sabotaging myself. Then when we were actually on the trip, I planned to be 'good' but fell just sort of total gluttony. Now that we are back I have given myself 3 full recovery days where I have done little else, but eat whatever I want and sit on the couch. I'm sure that has done wonders for my fitness level. I know mentally, it has left me in a funk where I don't like anybody, including myself. So today is the day I officially return from vacation. I'm not turning on the TV until I finish all the items on my LOOOOOOONG todo list. I'm scared shitless about going running and finding out how much of a backslide my behavior has caused me to take, but I have to start somewhere. I'd be lying if I said that that count-down falling below 40 days isn't freaking me out a bit. Being nowhere near where I should be at this point might have something to do with that. That's all for now, I've got to go get some shit done!!!